Disappointment Has Come Upon me

Doors are slamming, I’m not standing
Looking up
I cannot see one foot in front of
Help me up
Don’t help me up cause I don’t need

I’m regretting
But I’m betting better things will come to me
I can’t believe I’ve gone this far
Where have I been
Where will I be?

What a waste of time
It just seems like another disappointment has come upon me

Feeling better for the moment
Feeling less bent than I did
But I am fleeting
Thoughts repeating
Over and over and over I hear
“You can’t do it, too much to it”
“Stop before another day goes by”
I try to think of why to and don’t come up with anything

I need some time
The unwilling numbers are pulling under me